Last 9 minutes of me being 15.

Well. This time of year has come again. I am now turning 16. You know, time passes by quite quickly when you're having fun and honestly I can't believe just how fast time has been passing by. With these last 9 minutes of my life, I will take this time to contemplate what I have accomplished this year. It's been a good year. I'm now officially in IB and right now, I'm just spending the last of what is now 6 minutes left of me being 15. I always expected my sweet sixteen to be something special. I would always see these tv shows with people celebrating their 16th birthday in the craziest ways. However, if everything goes just like every other day, tomorrow will just be another normal school day. Nothing special. When you grow older, birthdays just tend to be less and less important. Just another regular day in life. I am really going to miss being 15. I felt like a kid still when I said I was 15. 16 is now the age to drive which is a huge responsibility that only adults have. I think I'm becoming an adult. Ha. Some things I am really proud of doing during my age of 15 would be wakeboarding this year for sure. I had loads of fun. I guess another thing would be making my Youtube videos which I really enjoy and having the new friends that I made and developing other friendships. I also got 7 As in Pre-IB which I am very grateful and proud of. *sigh* Another year. 1 minute left. I guess this is it. Last seconds of being 15. I'll miss you. I wish that things become better than it was when I was 15. Goodbye!

Death

Recently, the idea of death has really been floating through my mind. Why? Well it's quite complicated. I have a friend of my grandmother's who is dying. To my knowledge, she has Alzheimer's disease and it's really impacted her greatly. I remember when I was little, we would visit her from time to time. She was a really nice lady who would make this really nice fried rice. I remember how I would always eat 2-3 bowls of her delicious delicacy. Even though I haven't tasted her rice for 6-7 years now, the taste still lingers within my mind. I wish I still got the chance of eating her rice but she's too sick to do anything now. Who knew the last time I've ever had her rice would be the last time of my life. She would always smile when she saw me with her beautiful smile and her warm glowing eyes. I felt welcome whenever I saw her. She's a beautiful lady. 2 weeks ago, I saw her for the first time in years and that was when it hit me, how much the disease was really affecting her. She wasn't the same lady I knew years ago. I was expecting a welcoming smile feeling the same amount of warmth I've felt from the last time I saw her. However, what I encountered was a cold dead smile and eyes of no recognition or regard for who I was. She forgot who I was. The same lady would give my family fried rice and the same lady who would smile at me every time she saw me forgot me. I really miss the old days where life was just so much better and everyone was just so much younger. I was faced with the face of death that day. The face of a dying person. It just makes me realize how real this world really is. This really makes me fear Alzheimer's taking someone close to me. Someone that I love. I fear death.

End of Pre-IB

Holy. I never realized how long I stopped blogging for. It's a shame really. I had a goal to continue blogging for the rest of this school year but I guess that didn't last for too long as I had a lot more to do. Well anyways a lot of things have happened between this time period. Firstly, I'm done with Pre-IB and we've also gotten results for people that have moved on towards IB. A lot of friends didn't make it unfortunately and it's really disappointing. I made it and I'm blessed for that. Anyways, a few days ago, we had our IB orientation and we got a sneak peek of what IB is gonna be like. I got 2 words to describe it. More stress. This is really gonna suck. We got 6 books we have to read during the summer. Oh boy. I'm really beginning to wonder whether all this stress is gonna be worth it in the end. A lot of my good friends are gonna be there to go through the tough war of IB with me. Whatever happens I guess happens. Anyways, this is the week of our provincials and currently, I've finished the Math Provincial and the Science Provincial, both which were decent. Now I just gotta get through the English Provincial coming up tomorrow. Oh, also I forgot to mention, I also have a violin RCM Grade 8 exam on Saturday. I have roughly about a day or two. I really hope I pass. I'm like super super scared. At least after all this, it'll be freedom. Endless nights of summer and vacation in Hong Kong, the sweetest place for wakeboarding. Stoked for summer! Until my next blog, whenever that may be.

well it was nice while it lasted

im a little late but winter break's over already. *sigh*. winter break was fun but it wasn't as great as it was last year. I still remember the fun I had on Christmas last year and I specifically remember watching a whole series of Avatar the Last Airbender during the last few days of my break. *sigh* yup. it was pretty dang fun. Well with the break being over, that means 4 projects due this month. *sigh* this sucks a lot. Lets see. I have an English reading project due on the 24th, a S.S essay test to take on the 24th, a French film project on the 25th, and a Science fair project due in the first few days of February. I really don't know how to sort this out anymore. So considering I have roughly 2 weeks to do these projects and it's pretty hard. I've finished reading one book and I still have another book that I still haven't gotten yet. Now I'm starting to get worried about it. WHYYYYYYYYYY. omg. I have 2 weeks to rush a book. Not very good. Well at least the book is only 309 pages which is good I guess. *sigh*. This is gonna be one hell of a month.