lonely

*sigh* we had another party celebrating my parents birthday. I'm so lonely though. No one understands me and cares about me. I'm really missing Canada. I get ignored. Today I didn't get food for dinner and my grandma, which I dearly love, saw and spoke up. No one else seemed to notice. Life really sucks. The only people that do care would be my grandma, grandpa and my friends. My dad and my mom are too busy loving my sister that I just get left behind standing in the corner. I really do feel like crying and letting it all out but I'm just gonna suck it all up until I sleep. I could let it all out there where no one would see. I don't think they'll care anyways if they do see me crying. Guess it's just that I'm older...