Death

Recently, the idea of death has really been floating through my mind. Why? Well it's quite complicated. I have a friend of my grandmother's who is dying. To my knowledge, she has Alzheimer's disease and it's really impacted her greatly. I remember when I was little, we would visit her from time to time. She was a really nice lady who would make this really nice fried rice. I remember how I would always eat 2-3 bowls of her delicious delicacy. Even though I haven't tasted her rice for 6-7 years now, the taste still lingers within my mind. I wish I still got the chance of eating her rice but she's too sick to do anything now. Who knew the last time I've ever had her rice would be the last time of my life. She would always smile when she saw me with her beautiful smile and her warm glowing eyes. I felt welcome whenever I saw her. She's a beautiful lady. 2 weeks ago, I saw her for the first time in years and that was when it hit me, how much the disease was really affecting her. She wasn't the same lady I knew years ago. I was expecting a welcoming smile feeling the same amount of warmth I've felt from the last time I saw her. However, what I encountered was a cold dead smile and eyes of no recognition or regard for who I was. She forgot who I was. The same lady would give my family fried rice and the same lady who would smile at me every time she saw me forgot me. I really miss the old days where life was just so much better and everyone was just so much younger. I was faced with the face of death that day. The face of a dying person. It just makes me realize how real this world really is. This really makes me fear Alzheimer's taking someone close to me. Someone that I love. I fear death.

End of Pre-IB

Holy. I never realized how long I stopped blogging for. It's a shame really. I had a goal to continue blogging for the rest of this school year but I guess that didn't last for too long as I had a lot more to do. Well anyways a lot of things have happened between this time period. Firstly, I'm done with Pre-IB and we've also gotten results for people that have moved on towards IB. A lot of friends didn't make it unfortunately and it's really disappointing. I made it and I'm blessed for that. Anyways, a few days ago, we had our IB orientation and we got a sneak peek of what IB is gonna be like. I got 2 words to describe it. More stress. This is really gonna suck. We got 6 books we have to read during the summer. Oh boy. I'm really beginning to wonder whether all this stress is gonna be worth it in the end. A lot of my good friends are gonna be there to go through the tough war of IB with me. Whatever happens I guess happens. Anyways, this is the week of our provincials and currently, I've finished the Math Provincial and the Science Provincial, both which were decent. Now I just gotta get through the English Provincial coming up tomorrow. Oh, also I forgot to mention, I also have a violin RCM Grade 8 exam on Saturday. I have roughly about a day or two. I really hope I pass. I'm like super super scared. At least after all this, it'll be freedom. Endless nights of summer and vacation in Hong Kong, the sweetest place for wakeboarding. Stoked for summer! Until my next blog, whenever that may be.

well it was nice while it lasted

im a little late but winter break's over already. *sigh*. winter break was fun but it wasn't as great as it was last year. I still remember the fun I had on Christmas last year and I specifically remember watching a whole series of Avatar the Last Airbender during the last few days of my break. *sigh* yup. it was pretty dang fun. Well with the break being over, that means 4 projects due this month. *sigh* this sucks a lot. Lets see. I have an English reading project due on the 24th, a S.S essay test to take on the 24th, a French film project on the 25th, and a Science fair project due in the first few days of February. I really don't know how to sort this out anymore. So considering I have roughly 2 weeks to do these projects and it's pretty hard. I've finished reading one book and I still have another book that I still haven't gotten yet. Now I'm starting to get worried about it. WHYYYYYYYYYY. omg. I have 2 weeks to rush a book. Not very good. Well at least the book is only 309 pages which is good I guess. *sigh*. This is gonna be one hell of a month.

first day of being 15

wow. yesterday was my last day of being 14 and I forgot to blog about it. But whatever. *sigh* Being 15 is nice and all. I feel pretty dang old. i'm like halfway to 30. Dam. Well other then it being my birthday, it's also 12/12/12. Happy 12/12/12 to everyone out there. This will probably be the last 12/12/12 we'll ever have. Well in our lifetime anyways. Today was fun. I even got a piggyback ride. But yeaa. Happy 12/12/12 everyone and enjoy it while you can. I would tell you to make a wish at 12/12/12 12:12:12 but it's already too late for that. At least I got to make a wish. What is it? Well I'm not allowed to tell or else it won't come true. Happy 12/12/12 and hope you enjoyed the day as much as I did. =)

finallyyyy

holyyyyy. just finished. my. brochure. for. S.S. omggg. we're still not halfway done the S.S. project itself though. and i still have to do my Independent Reading Project.... omg.

PSAT

dayum im tired. I just handed in my science proposal today along finishing the PSAT test. Omgggg. Pre-IB pressure is pretty insane. I've been sleeping at like 1 for the past few days and I dont think I could even remember a time that I wasn't tired. anyways i got a socials project to take notes for. Goodness. next week is gonna be one heck of a week. i got 2 science tests and 3 projects.

3 projectssss

omgggggggg. i have 3 projects due in like a weeek. omgggg. being in pre-IB is pretty dang stressful. and i kinda wasted my Sunday because i fell asleep at around 1 pm and woke up at 4. I was just soo tired from yesterday because i slept at 1 finishing up my book for English. omgggg. soooo stressful. Right now, im trying to think of a Science fair project because the proposals due on wednesday. hmmm what should i do for my project this year.